10/12/2025
Yesterday was Tourn’s proper 11th birthday.
It’s crazy to me that he’s ELEVEN. I’ve known him since he was 3, and while he was states away for a few years racing, he’s always been a solid fixture in my life.
He came home on the cusp of 7 years old. He knew me before my head injury and after. He in fact, helped me make it to today. Without him I would have been too far gone in trying to find who I was after the head injury. Trying to understand a life without equine companionship. His first career ended and he came home at the right moment to shine a light and I was able to find my way back to myself and life.
There’s a constant undercurrent of gratefulness and appreciation that I get to be his person every day. A lot of people have said to me verbatim “that he’s lucky he has you, no one else would put up with his sh*t.” Which I always tended to agree with. He “gets away” with a lot; but his “getting away” with things is down to your own interpretations of horsemanship. And it’s well documented now that I don’t subscribe to anything traditional.
But lately I think it says more about the kind of horse people they are.
That Tourn shows up as himself, without apology and pretence, is a gift. He is intolerant of receiving pretence in return. You are simply unable to develop a working relationship (or any relationship) with him if you haven’t faced your own truth. And in that way he is a great teacher and mentor.
He is lucky to have me because I have grown and changed and matured in response to him. I am luckier to have a horse who has challenged me to be better. To ask questions. To try new things. To sit with uncomfortable truths about myself and life and find some peace.
This is a journey that never ends, as it should be with horses. But I am just so fu***ng amazed that this horse is in my life and allows me to share in his.
We butt heads plenty. I ask him his permission, but it’s hard to negotiate that and rehab his pain without a few arguments.
I could talk all day about what I got to learn because he allowed me to make mistakes, trusting I would improve. But today as the sun rises on another year of his life, I’m just wrapped up in the magic of rides like this where he reaches out to the hand I’ve extended.
That’s harmony. That’s the only kind of horsemanship I’m interested in.