31/12/2024
Every end of the year I like to stop a bit and reflect on how the year gone has been and also choose my word for the next year, the word that represents the development I want to focus on.
2024's word was 'confidence'. All my life I have been hidding, doubting myself, feeling/acting small, because I have always felt not good enough so I became superficially too much to compensate.
Very often the unconscious finds ways to self fulfill your own profecy, to reinforce your core beliefs, because being too much actually pushes many people away and this ends up making you think it is confirmation you are not good enough. There is no win, It trully is a vicious circle I think many of us get into without realising.
Well, 2024 was my year to focus on this, and so I did, and so I gained a little bit more confidence.
Knowing I'm maybe ADHD has helped a lot. Many things all of a sudden made sense, and I am working hard on finding ways that work to manage my symptoms, with a lot of self compassion and patience.
Little by little I got to feel I'm all I need, I have more than I need, I'm good enough the way I am, I don't need anymore of anything, I don't need more knowledge, I don't need more material things, I don't need more money, I don't need more friends, I don't need more love, I don't need more... I am and got so much!
And let me tell you what a freeing feeling this is!
The best feeling, pure gratittude, true self love... If happiness is anything, for me it is this!
I can't forget how much Perú has contributed to this too, it has given me so much, incredible friends that feel like family, incredible opportunities to expand professionally, and, abuelita Ayahuasca, & Mama Cacao gave me their hand and I'm still held by them.
So my word for 2025 is not about getting anything more of anything, quite the opposite, it is about continuing clearing this too much of everything, simplifying life, simplifying career, simplifying relationships, simplifying self, so I can receive all good that is yet to come and allow whatever appears to be not so good to flow and serve my growth.
So the word I have chosen for 2025 is 'Opening'
I know it may seem it doesn't make too much sense, but hear me out.
I want to be connected to myself and all around me in the most loving way I can, and being intentional about opening the heart every day, every moment, is the only way to do this as it allows you to stop trying to control anything, it helps you trust yourself and the universe, it helps you see the world is not against you, quite the opposite, it is totally in your favour. It helps you see!
I have never ever been this confidently clear in my life, and although the clarity wobbles, I'm okay with that, as I know it is part of the process.
So this year, I will focus in only 3 habits, daily meditation, consistent exercise and quality food & sleep. (if the body is not okay, it is more difficult for the mind to be okay)
This is my part, this is what I can control, my channels of energy, the rest is out of my hands, so I will flow with what comes and receive & give with open arms.
Bring it on 2025, I'm ready!
Wishing you all, light & love, and tons of health to thrive on this beautiful opportunity to live another one more day, another one new year.
Happy 2025 you beautiful souls! I'm so greatful for every single one of you!
And for you? What is your word for 2025?
❤️
Sandra
