31/12/2025
As 2025 draws to a close, it feels like a time for reflection.
There have been profound lows — the most unexpected and heartbreaking being the loss of Archie. A grief that sits quietly but deeply, and a reminder of just how much these horses become part of our souls.
Yet among the sadness, there have been moments that lifted my heart. Coming 2nd in the charity race at Newbury was incredibly emotional and fulfilling. Riding there, taking it all in, I felt proud, honoured and very aware of how precious these moments are and forever grateful to those who made it possible John Morris Shaun Harris trusting me with the fabulous horse Sisterandbrother.
The racing connections I’ve made have brought real purpose — from work riding at Southwell to helping retrain retired racehorses. Watching them grow, learn, and find new job has been a privilege I don’t take lightly. I never imagined that a completely new chapter would open at my age. Proof that life can still pleasently surprise you even if it does not go the way you planned.
Its only when we become attached to a particular outcome that we wallow in self pity.
With Oscar, we were just making some progress… then came the disappointment of him going lame this week. It’s hard not to feel like the timing is never quite right, and that maybe we aren’t meant to do much just yet. But I’m learning to sit with that — to trust what I can’t control, even I m desperately missing jumping and competing.
So I’m trusting the process. Carrying the grief, holding the gratitude, and staying open to what’s still unfolding.
The exciting new venture Hope Through The Herd will hopefully launch into bigger things next year. With exciting connections on the horizon we will have a bigger outreach.
Thank you to everyone who has been part of my journey this year, hopefully you ll be there with me in 2026.🤍
