23/04/2024
I’m going to share a little observation I am grateful for today. For the past two years I’ve been judging my own work based on this made up “quality check” before I post it on Instagram. I’ve made it up, I don’t even know why it started, but it’s now a thing. I upload my photo and I put Lux filter on it to 50%. If the filter made a huge improvement to my original upload, I go back to retouching, or in some cases, my ego takes a hit and I delete the photo completely. It’s not that I am trying to match Lux filter. If I like a filter more than my own work, then I guess I don’t feel authentic enough.
So, I am happy to say that the past few times l didn’t feel the need to do that. Perhaps the need to compare my self to something has wore off, or perhaps the imposter syndrome got easier.
It’s kinda ironic that we all post to share something we do, something we have, or experience, yet we often worry about what others will think of it, or of being judged. Because sometimes people say things that can deeply affect us. And that’s a shame, we should all build each other up.
I guess what I am trying to say that my work feels true to me. This photo is simple, yet it’s my favourite one out the whole album. I put together skills I didn’t have 3 or 6 months ago, the skills I’ve learnt in the evenings and weekends and I am excited to learn more, to experience more, to be able to do more.
If you like it, thank you. If you don’t, that’s ok, I respect that too.