15/07/2023
Hello
As you will have seen from my post feed about Lucky the Clydesdale, I take care of the horses feet for this very worth while animal sanctuary. If you can help no matter how small please donate and help keep these animals safe.
https://www.crowdfunder.co.uk/p/help-harmony-fields-hang-on?fbclid=IwAR1I6CcLt5ZKKpv8HC6t3WkWmi4hENViEBdXxcKUtEAFqUvfhUniwfgDRKg_aem_ARYvmEJwdsqodk92xT9JcFVWKQinYSJ4yHZCutfz-4wh7omsuSb0CIrmiC2275gagCA
Thank you for reading
Steven
This is a very difficult post for me to write, and it's very long. You have been warned!! 🙈💞
I'm sorry its been quiet on here. I'm sorry for not responding to messages and emails. I'm sorry for the lack of communication and posts. The truth is, I'm sinking. Mentally, emotionally, financially, I'm just not coping very well at the moment, and in all honesty I'm hiding. In typical introvert style, I'm withdrawing, retreating, pushing people away. Things are tough just now, tougher than they've ever been, and for the first time in the 7 years since we started this wonderful, crazy life that is Harmony Fields, I'm terrified we're not going to survive. I'm struggling to communicate, to face people, even my closest friends, and I feel so guilty, I know we're all struggling and I don't feel I have the right to complain when so many families are in crisis, I have it good really, surrounded by our precious babies on a daily basis, I should be happy!! But. BUT. Its been almost a year now since we had to close to dismantle and rip apart our first beloved home. Almost a year since we had any meaningful income generation. Almost a year since I could sleep without worry. Almost a year of saying "it'll be fine, not much longer now...". Yet here we are, a year later, and we are STILL closed. I just can't believe it. Its been 9 months since we moved to our forever home with the initial plan that access would be sorted by Christmas, then by spring, then soon, soon, soon....every time we believed it, every time we told ourselves just hang on another few weeks, another couple of months tops, another little bit, it'll be fine, just hang on....and we have. We've hung. We've waited. We've begged and borrowed and maxed out everything we can to keep going, just a little bit longer. And we're still waiting. It's in no way the fault of our wonderful neighbours at Rachel's Farm, they are the loveliest family, trying so hard to do a truly wonderful thing with their wellbeing retreat and rewilding projects, but they are struggling too with the massive challenges brought by any large development...the delays, the complaints, the red tape, its all so much harder than any of us could ever have imagined...they have been incredibly supportive and are doing everything they can to help us, but they are struggling too and neither of us can do anything about the unprecedented delays. Quite simply, we're closed, we have no option, we have no access, no parking, no help. Our staff have long gone, we can't get new volunteers onto site and I couldn't handle talking to or training them even if we could. My lovely Ronnie is taking shifts wherever and whenever he can to keep a roof over our family's heads, and I'm on my own on a daily basis trying to keep our furry gang fed, clean, cared for and loved, but they miss our team, they miss you guys, there's only so many hours in a day and I'm struggling. Deep down, bone tired, mentally drained, emotional wreck struggling. As well as petrified we won't be able to hang on long enough to come out the other side of this. Its terrifying. The only thing I can do is ask for your help to see us through and keep us going just a little bit longer. Again. There is at long last some amazing progress on the road, but there's still a way to go and we are out of time. Literally. We've almost lost the summer season , which is the best time for bringing in money, and winter will be here before we know it, I just don't know how we can get through it again. I'm so sorry, you've all been incredible over the last year, and I am mortified that I have to do this again, but our animals need me to be brave, to be strong, to own up to needing help. Again. You all know how I hate to put myself out there like this in any situation at all, let alone on the dreaded social media (!) but I felt i owed you an explanation. Sometimes you have to be vulnerable, however much it hurts. I hope and pray you will stick with us and still be here when we can eventually reopen. I'm sorry we've been rubbish recently. Please, please bear with us.
Normal service WILL be resumed!!! Eventually!! IT WILL!! 🙏🙏🙏💜💞💜
Thank you all, much love, Cath x
(Link in comments with more details and how u can help 🙏)
