04/10/2023
Hello everybody, Steve here of course. Firstly I would like to thank you all for the kind words and wishes. I also didn't really appreciate quite how many of you had met, walked and interacted with Nessa!
Since her passing I have thrown myself into catching up with some much needed house maintenance. This has helped me not to constantly dwell on her loss. Now, and this won't be for everyone I know, I also found that packing up all her things and putting them upstairs on her bed helped enormously. I still have that beautiful, large photograph on the wall but I'm not looking at her cushion, bowls, toys etc which would constantly set me sobbing. I felt guilty about it but I had to do it and it certainly has helped me with dealing with such an awful loss.
I have scattered Noos's ashes recently. That was very emotional to say the least. I walked to the paddock first and entered. It was very odd to see the long grass and no tracks from our visits. I walked all around the paddock, scattering a little as I walked. I then headed to the old oak tree we used to visit way back when Noos started posting here. Scattering a little here and there all along the track until I arrived at the entrance to the field where we used to stop and listen to the birds or even silence. Nessa used to like to just stand there listening and sniffing the air, sometimes for 10 or 15 minutes, before we'd turn around and set off for home. I scattered the rest of her ashes there, in the entrance. It felt like my final act and a bawled my eyes out, as I am now.
It's fair to say that, although I desperately miss her, I have coped better than I imagined. Obviously I still have my moments. I read the comments that you wonderful followers have left, now and again, and I'm a sobbing mess but I look at her photo on the wall all the time and I'm sad but happy with all the memories I have with her.❤️
I have also looked at all her photos on here and, of course, they are the pick of the best I have taken. What a fantastic girl you really were NooNoos.😘
Now on a lighter note, I'm off to Bulgaria tomorrow to see John and his TEN dogs. (If Jordon agrees that is!!! :) ) Just the therapy I need I reckon!! 😄
I'll sign off now thanking you all for your time and input and wishing you and all your doggies the very best for the future. I may well get another dog in the future but not just yet. Here are the photos I took at the paddock and the field I speak of. There are a couple of cows in there now.
Thanks again to you all, Steve xx
