
05/02/2023
The irony of life…
To be deemed worthy of value n praise.. n yet find yourself so helpless n unworthy when you’re struggling to hold on to what you value most - your kids.
This popped up on my fb feed and I realised I am making the news again but for all the ‘wrong’ reasons.
Standing up for lives I believe that matter, lives I believe that deserve every bit of our love, respect n understanding.. unfortunately it isn’t a human life no? I speak for animals. That hardly counts..
I feel so many emotions running amok within me, gratitude for the few friends who reached out to help after reading yesterday’s post n for feeling my sense of despair. My gratitude isn’t enough for what you did for me is something not my closest family or ‘friends’ have done. You stepped into my pain n held my hand in solidarity. Bless you n thank you for that🙏🏼🙏🏼❤️❤️
I also feel shame, embarrassment- look at that reel n you will know.
The one thing life has taught me about being a cat mom to multiple cats n the contempt n bemusement I have seen in people is - you should never ask for help. For truth be told when it comes to an animal, no one really cares..
We survived the darkest days of Covid struggling for food n our safety.
God knows how we managed.
But I guess that feeling pales when you struggle to give your kids the dignity they deserve in their twilight years.
Helpless that neither your talent, your reputation and who u are can help you survive the presence of death n despair in your house.
I should give up no? As advised by all those who’ve spent their lives telling me so.
But I cannot, coz you simply CANNOT give up on love.
So they label me a martyr..
Why? Coz I’ll do anything for my kids?
Maybe to you these lives mean nothing. But they do to me. I share this because I know there are many Rehanas out there- struggling to give love of this kind a chance to live.
N I say more power to you sister.. remember why we love them..coz they make us human.
The world will judge you, limit you, denounce you but they forget that we don’t bow to them.. we bow to the power who made them.. n there’s none more merciful than Him.
Coz He WILL see you through..