04/12/2025
Maya is 20. Or is going to be. I don’t know her exact birthday so I selfishly decided to celebrate twenty trips around Sun on my Name’s Day on August 21st. She has aged significantly in the last couple months. She is still excited to see me through her cataract-graying eyes, then stares up at me as if she was saying “I’m a little tired, I’ll go lie down.”
She now has trouble sitting down, she can barely could climb two stairs, but she still asks to be helped with her frequent trips to the backyard. Her body is fragile and she more often than not looses balance. Her skin is covered in dry spots that I try to moisturize but the effort is quite fruitless. I do it because she enjoys it. I still wince a little when I scratch her and give her the love she so unbashingly asks for these days.
When she gets excited—she p*es a little. Actually, she has incontinence, and can’t hold her p*e anymore so with that - she’s ruined a floor board or two dozen. So yeah, I sometimes I look at pet owners with their bright-eyed, well-mannered pups, and no. I’m not bothered by any of it, and she does not seem to be bothered by trivial things, such as aging, losing eye sight, hearing or the ability to control her bladder either.
Lately, when she is sleeping and I approach her—she doesnt move at first, and I’ll admit I am almost always afraid that she died sometime in her sleep. To my relief, as I touch her, she struggles to her feet and dutifully heads to the back door. She knows where the treats are kept and her way to the backyard.
Maya is a 20 year old tiny but mighty, very sassy and extremely spicy old lady. She has an off black coat with an all-white face and a very healthy appetite who has given me the privilege of caring for her. In return, I get a limited amount of tail wags, b***y wiggles, and her determination to trip me as she follows my every step around the yard and house. Maya gives what she has to give, but the truth is that it isn’t much.
It didn’t cost me anything to bring her into my house because she sort of quietly walked into the heart of my life and made herself comfortable. She’s been relatively healthy so the vet bills aren’t piling up like what I am used to. But - because she’s old and her body is beginning to fail- the amount of cleaning supplies. Laundry detergent. Floor cleaner. More laundry detergent. And, of course, upkeep of the vacuum cleaner that will suck the carpet off the floor—but somehow seems to leave more dog hair littering my hardwood floors than it should. However, I’ve stopped counting how much I’ve spent, because I’ve learned something really valuable in caring for Maya (and really, every dog I’ve ever cared for)…
I’ve learned that caring for someone who really can’t give you anything in return is of immeasurable value. Most of us willingly care for our children, our mates, and our parents if we need to. Generally, we get something in return for that care. It may only be the satisfaction of seeing our children do well, our spouses find happiness, or our parents living their final days in the warmth of our love—but we do get something in return.
As I write, I find that Maya and my other senior fuzzy friends have given me something more than I could have expected from these old dogs. They helped me recognize the day may well come when I may need to be cared for and be unable to offer much in return. Maybe, if I’m fortunate, I can offer a warm smile of gratitude or speak the words that accompany it. Maybe I’ll even be able to offer someone comfort, encouragement, and make them laugh. Or, maybe I won’t.
If you're lucky, like me, your home has a heartbeat. Or three. 😊 Lately I have realized that I measure my life by those who love me. My fuzzy friends are always my good days and I honestly don’t know what I did to deserve any one of them.
I am an ordinary woman who has been blessed with the love of very extraordinary dogs. ❤️❤️