03/10/2022
Hold Momma Sally and Rugby in your hearts and prayers tonight and in the morning. We love you both so much. Ginny will be waiting to fly with sweet boy
The Mama: Rugby, I need to tell you that tomorrow you will have a really big adventure!
Rugby: I will? Has I ever had this one before?
The Mama: Nope, Little Biscuit. This is a one time adventure and it’s a really big one!
Rugby: Are you going wif me? You know how I always feel okay about stuff if you are wif me.
The Mama: Well, I can go part way with you, but you’ll have to be very brave and finish this adventure all alone. It’s not an adventure that I can finish with you, because tomorrow you learn to fly, and I don’t know how to do that.
Rugby: I’m going to learn to fly? Like birdies? Will I be scared? You know I gets scared and anxious sumtimes. Is this one of those times?
The Mama: Little Biscuit, I don’t know if you’ll be scared, but I promise you that I will be scared with you. I’ve never had to watch you learn to fly before, so this is all new to me too. I promise that I will hold your paw until I can’t hold it anymore, and by then you’ll already be flying like you’ve done it for forever.
Rugby: Will I get turned into a birdie and hasta eat worms and seeds and gross stuff?
The Mama: Well, not exactly, because tomorrow you get turned into an Angel Dogger and you’ll go to live someplace very special to wait for me.
Rugby: I getsa be a Angel Dogger? For real??
The Mama: Sweet Boy, you have fought CCD for so long, and you have been braver than brave. You have always tried so so hard with everything since the day you came home with me. But you’re so very tired now, and the spark has left your eyes, so I know it’s time.
Rugby: Well I really am tired , Mama. And I fall down a lot and can’t get back up and the CCD keeps making me wanna try and I just can’t do it unless you boost me and then I fall right back down again. And that makes it hard to do my Bedtime Cookie Dance wif you. And that makes me so very sad and then suppers isn’t good and I doesn’t wanna eat much .
The Mama: I have seen you become that sad little dog in the last week, so that’s why I talked to your vetty vet about giving you one really special adventure to learn how to fly like an Angel Dogger. I can see how tired you are and how sad you feel for continuing to try so very hard. Once you’re an Angel Dogger you won’t be sad or have to try to do those things that are so very hard anymore.
Rugby: And I’ll getsa live in your heart and go everywhere wif you! That’s a good fing, Mama. We will getsa be togedder alls the time and not just sum of the time. And I will be a bright new star in the sky to twinkle at you when it’s dark.
The Mama: You are completely right about all of that, Rugby.
Rugby: And you can still be the Mama and I can still be your lil dogger forever and always, right? We still getsa be a team togedder right?
The Mama: Right! Forever and always! We will ALWAYS be a team, Biscuit! Always.
Rugby: Will you be brave when I fly away?
The Mama: I will try just as hard as I know how to try.
Rugby: You know I lubs you a BIG MUCH, right?
The Mama: Boy do I! And you know that I would always choose you in a whole stadium filled with little doggers right?
Rugby: Right!! And that makes me so very glad!
The Mama: Me too Biscuit! The Daddy got a special pizza for you, and you get a whole slice all of your very own tonight! And I boiled chimken for your kibbles, and you can have some Greek Yogurt with blueberries in it. And then we will finish up with your special bedtime cookies! How’s that for specials and extras? Will that be good food tonight to help you fly tomorrow?
Rugby: OH BOY!! That’s the bestest ever!!! I love you Mama!!
The Mama: And I love you, Rugby James! More than I can ever tell you in words.
Please be thinking of us tomorrow as Rugby learns to fly at 9:30 EST. We cherish all of you so much and value your love and friendship more than I can say! This journey has been made so much easier because of the love and support that I’ve felt from all of you! Saying thank you doesn’t feel very adequate but it’s all that I have. ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️