08/12/2024
🙏Yesterday was the worst day of my life🙏 At 4a Lucifer was sleeping on my chest and his breathing became labored. As I drove to the er his breathing led to mouth breathing. He was admitted immediately and ran some tests. By 5:30 I was painfully aware I had to end his suffering. I picked him up and placed him over my heart. I told him his brothers Fenya and Yargeyr would be there to greet him and that I loved him more than anything in this world (and a few secrets between us) I signed paperwork and the doctor gave him peace. I sat alone with him for over 2 hours and struggled to breathe. I took some of his super soft bootyfuzz and the one whisker we had been working on together. (It’s ok If you don’t understand) I drove home sobbing and trying my best to focus on just getting home to my nakids.
I still had 2 already scheduled vet visits ahead of me. I thought to cancel them, but I had to bring Laszlo in for an important 2p eye checkup, and wellness visit for V before 11a. As I drove with V, her breathing became labored but silent, unlike Lucifer earlier that day, unlike Yargeyr 3 months ago, unlike Fenya 10 years ago. The doctor was concerned about her breathing but became very concerned at her 98 temp and in that second it became critical. She was taken in the back and I gave the doctor free range on options based on my trust in her (the first vet ever I’ve had this with). Minutes later the doctor came in and I followed her to the back as V was in full heart failure on the table. I was asked to sign the paperwork I had signed just hours earlier for Lucifer. V was removed from all machines and I picked her up and placed her over my heart and told her how much I loved her and her brothers would be there to greet her (and whispered a few secrets) I then gave the doctor consent (and shared a very special moment with her) as my special girl left this world to be with my 3 boys (boys that I would give anything to be with and wanted to be with the most) (more)
