04/15/2023
My sweet Angel has followed my Skyy boy out of this world and it is definitely the end of a special period of my life. My dogs had their own fan club, so to speak, and I think, had they been able to drive themselves, they would have been happily welcomed for visits and adventures by many others without me.
My sweet girl started having health issues that were very confusing to myself and to the multiple veterinarians we saw. From mysterious infections, to proteinuria, a limp tail, and then sudden, permanent blindness, I was told over and over that these symptoms were likely not connected. That never made sense to me, and only 5 months after Skyy’s passing and many tests later, we finally discovered the reason for Angel’s confusing physical symptoms. The crushing results were she had brain cancer that had spread to her lower spine and was eroding her vertebrae, as well as an enlarged and failing heart.
By the time I finally received the results, this news was only confirming the cancer I, and a few others suspected. As awful as this news was it was also a relief to finally understand what was wrong.
It was very hard watching her go blind and become so confused and fearful she didn’t enjoy walks or adventures anymore but one of the great blessings of this time was she was still comfortable at home with us and still a shameless cookie monster. There was never a point where she didn’t recognize my voice. I was able to love her, play with her, snuggle with her and she brought so much laughter with her silly shenanigans. It is a time I will cherish.
That last day was very short as she woke up very early, before the sun was up, in what must have been tremendous pain. We took that horrid drive to the vet and she went peacefully in my arms just like my sweet boy.
Angel was the most appropriately named dog, and I have heard that for years but it was the most apparent hearing over and over from the vets that she was the best patient they had ever seen. She never showed fear or panicked with the staff but calmly and quietly let the vets run their tests, take her blood, check her blood pressure, x-ray and ultrasound her whole body, etc, etc…
She was such a special girl and it’s hard to accept that she would get such a terrible illness after how hard her life had been, at least at the start. I first met her as a 1-year-old and she was so different then. She wouldn’t make eye contact or behave the way you would expect a dog to behave. She wanted to bury herself or hide somewhere, she was so afraid of everything. She had the worst fear issues I have ever seen in a dog. They were so bad that she was returned multiple times by her adopters, and I believe that was a big part of why she had issues connecting with people.
But she, from the beginning, loved dogs, and she would instantly befriend any dog she met. I remember the first time she met one of my largest client dogs, Turner, an enormous German Shorthaired Pointer. He could be grumpy with some dogs but she had zero fear and just ran up to him and started playing with him (and flirting) which he loved.
She was such an incredibly gentle and sweet pup, so obedient and well mannered, smart and so silly when she was comfortable and felt safe. Most people never got to see that side of her because throughout her life, despite how well she rehabilitated from the fear issues, she always struggled with reacting to sudden noises and certain strangers. But her “fan club” got to see her shenanigans and how much she grew and how happy she was. That is such a comfort to me, to know how happy she was with Skyy, and Hoot, in my home and visiting all her friends in their homes while we cared for them.
I want to childishly lament how unfair it is that they are gone but I really can’t. I am so grateful to God for blessing me with such wonderful, special animals and that I was allowed to have them as long as I did.
To all who knew and loved her, she loved you too. Thank you for the many adventures, snuggles, gifts, treats, care, and love. Thank you for welcoming us into your homes and lives.
There will never be another Angel or Skyy💔