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16/10/2022
Belle's ashes will be handed over to me by MikeNewton sometime in the near future. He saved her collar, and her leash.
From what I understand she was being crated pretty much 24/7 for the past 5 weeks, and finally had a chance to be set free when Mike and Cindy took her home. In passing, I happened to mention that I had never owned a dog for 9 years, and that the 13th of October was our 9 year anniversary together. She passed away on the 11th of October.
I made sure that under no circumstance was he to assign any of the guilt to himself or Miss Cindy. I saw the pictures as did the rest of you. She was happy, and I can't help but think she passed away that way.
Remember, she was an epileptic dog who was having grand mal seizures every 10 to 13 days at the most, so she lived a very full life. Or who knows, maybe there is such a thing as a broken heart.
I can't even begin to tell you how much I loved that dog so I won't try to bother you with pointless sentiments, and bothersome wails of sorrow. You know how much I loved her, and you know how much she loved me.
Little did I know when Mike and Cindy promised that she could live out the rest of her days with them if need be that it would be in such a short amount of time.
I have no words to express my gratitude to Mike and Cindy for allowing her to be with them instead locked away in a crate, with a backyard that never got scooped after I had to leave her there because of the underhanded dealings of others.
I don't know why people say life is unfair, but I say life is damn fair for an unwanted 6 month old Belgian malinois puppy with epilepsy to find a 53-year-old 🦓 who was just recovering from mitral valve replacement surgery. That's one helluva silver lining if you ask me.
I'm going to miss my bell bottom girl, but maybe it was her way of telling me it's time to prepare for the future. A future without her, and quite possibly a future in which I'm unable to live on my own if I even live.
My tears will be eternal.
Your comments are most appreciated before you make them so please understand if I don't answer at all. I've got too much thinking to do right now, way too much thinking, and I have to do it without Belle. 💔