08/28/2025
We said farewell to beautiful Poe and a quick thank you to one of our doctors.
Fly high, sweetheart, know you are so loved.
I wanted to thank your team and Dr Caplan for making our path as comforting as possible.
On 8/18/25, we opened a box of heartbreak to say goodbye to our Little Miss, our precious Poe. For the past year, she’s been receiving palliative care as we sought to ensure her comfort and dignity. Her offering of quiet purrs and sweet snuggles for 15 years has culminated in a love so great that it overflows from our heart of hearts as a salty river. What a gift to know the pain of loss; the price of loving her. What a gift to set aside our insistence she live forever; to make this choice before her suffering became too great.
On her last day on earth, she licked the cream from my coffee, ate a few of her favorite treats (tuna juice and Greenies catnip flavor). We played CatTV for her. We sat with her, stroked her head. We contacted Peaceful Passage and then said our goodbyes in our home, where she was most comfortable, with the people that belonged to her. In her final moments, I read aloud to her: Mary Oliver’s “In Blackwater Woods” along with a poem I wrote for our tiny grey precious cat while something inside me broke and mended itself, ad infinitum. Poe died softly, the same way she lived, and we released her through the veil. After she died, I created a memorial of flowers around her sweet, soft body and gave her one last kiss.
Gentle soul,
supernova.
Born as nebula,
blinding light,
the echo of your
spirit lives
in me.
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How to say goodbye to Poe
How much love goes into a gaze?
How much love pours into
your softness, into your
sweet face, into your
warmth in winter, into your
silent precious meow?
How terrible to say goodbye,
and goodbye, and goodbye
before I am ready, before I have
made plain to the whole world that you
carry my heart within your own
tiny body, wrapped up inside,
a solar system of gratitude
which, given more time,
would surely conquer all.
How to say goodbye to Poe:
I loved you at first sight,
I loved you every day,
I will love you
all of my days.