20/03/2024
Madeleine died today, 4 p.m. She was just four days away from turning 15. She almost made it. She didn't eat breakfast this morning and then could not stand, didn't even want water. Usually, that means - 3 days max. I knew it wouldn't be that long. Her breathing was extra labored. Then, her eye rolled back - the one not against her bed. I couldn't see the other one. I figured - one hour. Of course, I didn't tell her. She was a great dog. We had our talk about coming back as a dog versus a human. I told her that if she wanted to come back as a human, to tell God that I'd give her an excellent reference. We talked about the best location - NOT Arizona that's for sure - sucky weather for a dog most of the year and a back yard full of landscape rock instead of soft grass - hardly ideal for any animal. I apologized for bringing her here. I'm glad I held her this morning, must have been for an hour or more. She was fidgeting and I just picked her up and held her on top of me in bed. She relaxed and her breathing was better, not perfect but there was a noticeable improvement. I told her that she will see King Arthur, and their puppies that have passed and that one day, I will join them too. She's still with some of her loved ones, just not me. She won't be forgotten. Our remaining pets - they know. I put their paws on her chest and - Owen walked away with his tail between his legs. Mocha was just sad. Anna - not sure. She knows, but she struggled to get away. Goodbye for now my Sweetie. Madeleine, you were a wonderful dog. I loved you and will miss you dearly.
