22/10/2025
I have worked so hard with Lady M over the years to enable her to make choices so she has control over pretty much everything that happens to her and to help her feel safe. I have always listened closely and responded to her tiny, sometimes barely discernible, communications such as a flicker of an eyelid or the slight, brief tensing of a muscle to ensure she knows she can trust me. It therefore feels like such a betrayal of her trust to put her in the situation yesterday at the Vets where she was silently screaming out to me, totally helpless and scared, yet I did nothing to help her. She was really upset when she got home and quite understandably, she didn’t want me anywhere near her. Instead, she just looked at me from across the room with really sad, mistrusting eyes. Her trust in me took a huge knock and it was awful seeing all her barriers slam down again. I tried to reassure her but she was totally closed to me. I finally managed to break through by sending her some healing. Healing helps hugely with emotional trauma as well as physical injury and a few minutes in, Lady M’s tense, pained and angry face softened and she placed her paw on my hand. Coming from Lady M it was a really considered and profound decision for her to forgive me. I am so thankful that I have healing in my Lady M toolbox. She is such a tricky, complicated character but I am so privileged to share my life with her ❤️❤️❤️