30/07/2024
My heart is shattered into a gazillion pieces, not just mine but our whole family's. My eyes are burning from all the tears and the depth and weight of sadness suffocates me.
Our beautiful, beautiful girl Maeve (Bullionaire She's All That), passed away last night on the operating table.
Due to complications with her pregnancy Maeve needed an emergency caesarean at day 55. Unfortunately, she aspirated on intubation and died despite our vet trying everything she could to resuscitate.
We knew being this early into Maeves pregnancy that her pups would unlikely survive. She was carrying 10 absolutely stunning puppies. 5 boys and 5 girls. Unfortunately all carrying fluid. They never took their first breaths.
I had prepared for loss of the pups, but not for the phone call that said our girl hadn't made it either. Infact, not 20-30 minutes beforehand, I got the biggest feeling that Maeve had passed away but hoped against hope I was wrong.
When our vet rang with the horrible news, she was just as distraught. It's not an easy job i know. And being a breeder and vet nurse, I know the risks involved and what can happen, especially with this complicated breed i love so much. I chose to breed my girl, I put her in this position and we've all paid the ultimate price. My best mate is gone. Our house is empty and unbearably quiet and my girl's smiley face is missing and its boring the biggest fu***ng hole in my heart. I keep expecting to see her staring at me with lips smacking letting me know she wants my food or give me that little growl letting me know she needs to go to the toilet or just to look at her and see her watching me with her tongue poking out from her mouth. I miss her so much. She was and always will be the most special girl with the best temperament I've ever known.
I just want one more hug, one more moment with her to tell her I love her, even though I told her all the time, every day, just one more moment to thank her for being my best friend and companion and always being so happy to see me. She literally beamed and smiled at every moment we had together. I just can't breathe. 💔
My sincere thanks to Bec for entrusting me with this exceptional girl you bred. I'm so sorry she is gone hunni. I know you're hurting too. 💔
Thankyou to our lovely vet Chantelle at Bomaderry vets. I know you tried your hardest and I'm grateful for your effort, compassion patience and understanding. What a horrific night alright.
I share this news not for comments about breeding or sympathy or any such nonsense. This is the worst side of breeding. Even with the best of home care, vet care and the mountain of love pouring into Maeve, none of it could save her. This isn't a breed for the feint hearted and breeding of any breed and species for that matter comes with its highs and lowest lows. We've hit rock bottom. I wanted to share this with you or anyone contemplating becoming a breeder that it isn't a walk in the park. Ever.
I will miss you forever more my beautiful Maevey girl. Until we meet again, RIP. 💔