15/04/2025
It's been a hard and difficult 2 weeks. On April 1st, my beautiful Capt'n gave birth to 4 beautifully perfect, but extremely tiny babies. A week later, we have lost all the babies but one.
One didn't survive the birth, Cleopatra
Another died on the 6th day, Nefertiti
We lost a third on the 8th day, Anubis
It's pure devastation and soul crushing heartbreak.
These are the days you don't see on social media pages where showing cute puppies and loving mama's are the bread and butter of our page. Our Capt'n was so stressed from her delivery, multiple ER visits and depression from losing baby after baby, that she hadn't eaten in 9 days. Her milk didn't exist. Day after day of Veterinary interventions, trying to entice her to eat, day after day of trying to increase her milk supply, day after day of hourly or every 2 hours of tube feeding babies to save lives and we're barely holding on.
At the end of our 2 weeks, we've lost 3 tiny souls. Cleopatra, Nefertiti and Anubis have all passed away. We're crushed. To move forward, we must find a silver lining. Our silver lining . . . we still have one tiny boy, Osiris, that Capt'n has continued to feed. He's lost weight and gained weight and I believe we are now on the upswing. A second silver lining, Capt'n has FINALLY started to eat some food. It's not much, but every bite is a positive step towards healing her body and heart. The reality is we were so close to loosing our mamma too. We are still walking a very thin line with her life, but it's getting slightly better each day.
This whole experience has been extraordinarily heartbreaking and stressful. It's one of those events that you know will happen at some point on this path where animals are your life's passion. You always know statistically your time for this experience is coming. Your going to suffer great tragedy. You never want it to come and when it does, it seems to hit the litter you had the most hope for. It's these events that make you wonder how much more your willing to endure. For you and your beloved pups.
I absolutely love these pups. I love my mom and dad pups. I love the babies who we lovingly bring into this world and place in the most caring of homes. I love to watch them grow and play and learn and become wonderful companions. I love the joy my families have when they bring one of our pups into their lives. My yorkie family grows and expands with each pup. It's truly beautiful.
However, times like what we are experiencing now means I need to figure out our future. I'm not sure where our furture is headed but there's time to figure that out later. For now, we will keep trudging forward. I have a mom and baby that must be given the utmost care if they are to survive. So, we continue, day by day, moment by moment to do the best we can.
*Pictures of our mamma Capt'n and all her babies, both loved and lost.