27/11/2024
It is with the heaviest of hearts and the most broken of spirits that I post this.
Smauggie passed away in my arms a week ago on 11.19. It was a rapid decline and he spent his last days outdoors, surrounded by his family and so so so much love.
I am doing a bit better, but I am not still able to fully talk about him without being brought to tears. As most everyone knows, that little boy saved me. He was a force of nature with a sassy but loving personality and got me through the trauma and grieving process of divorce, surgery, r*pe, and COVID lockdown….but because of him I was able to heal and grow these last four years.
And they have been the best four years of my life. I can only hope that I gave him a great life in return ♥️ I know I need to remember that he was 9 and together we hiked, we camped, we sang, we roadtripped, we swam, we danced, we yapped, we cycled, we karaoked, we SUP-ed. We did so much and pretty much everything together.
He also literally introduced me to my partner Seth and through him, Smauggie got a sister. And all of a sudden Smauggie had two more individuals who loved him fiercely and deeply and protectively ♥️
That’s about all I can share now as I am already typing through tears. Please know that sharing his life with y’all brought me so much joy and although this is goodbye to Smauggie, it is not a final farewell!! I will continue to post pictures of him, sharing the memories attached ♥️
Please be kind as I mourn and grieve the loss of my best friend and my baby ♥️
