25/10/2022
Maybe I've already shared this picture. I don't care. I'm sharing it again.
I love Oakley. I love her enough to want her to be the happiest she can be, and for the past two or three months I've been struggling to be the best dad I can be. I've been home on short term disability and because of my condition, keeping up with the basic needs of Oakley, Pax, and myself has been really fu***ng hard. When I go back to work it's just going to get harder.
I've talked to the sire's owner about rehoming Oakley, because I cannot provide for her in a way that I feel good about.
Oakley is going to be with me til Thursday, and then she's going to find her forever home and make somebody or some family so happy. She's affectionate and sweet and good natured and learns quickly and deserves the best life she can possibly have, and I'm so devastated that I'm not the person who can give her that life.
Please don't try to talk me out of it or tell me it's just my anxiety or that "I got this" because guys I do not got this. I've been thinking about this for months, basically two whole months now or more. I'm so embarrassed and ashamed and I feel like such a failure. But I also know I'm doing the right thing.
I've already talked to the sire's owner and we're going to do the handoff on Thursday, and I just need to not be talked out of this guys please because I'm trying to do what's right for the dog. I'm basically posting this because I know the followers are interested in updates and this is .... One of the final ones.
I didn't want to have this conversation one on one with a bunch of friends so I'm just putting it here.
Thank you all for coming along on this journey with me and oak, I'm really sorry it didn't go how we all hoped. Everybody please put amazing vibes out for Oakley finding her forever home and being really happy because that's all I want for her.