18/03/2022
My reason. My dear boy Forest.
He was returned to the wind two years ago, he was only 12 but his body wasn’t able to withstand this world any longer. The hardest thing I’ve ever had to do, but the most selfless also. Making the choice to put my best friend of 7 years to rest, that was awful. But I wasn’t willing to keep him around for the sake of my sanity-I owed him more then that.
I purchased him as a very green broke 4 year old, I was 13. Was it ideal? No. But from that first accidentally day together we were bound to be with another. I had never been so sure of needing something in my life like I did leaving him that day, as he was my 4h leaders horse they bred, but I had to have him. My heart screamed this, and I listened.
Let me tell you now-he was UGLY, gangly, small, bald spot on his neck .. the works. But I knew- and his soul reached to mine and said to be with me. We had an incredible 7 years almost to date, with another. Him being not very broke, and me being a kid, we had a lot of learning and trial and error. I rode him and we did lots of showing and 4h events, jumping, dressage, reining, drill team, but his calling was the liberty work. I didn’t know how to start or teach, I just tried. I tried and I listened to him.
People ask at lessons and clinics “where/how’d you learn that” … it’s simple, my horse. My horse who was went into extremely high threshold very easily, my horse who was very emotionally sensitive, I was “forced” to be quiet, to hear past my visions and listen to the now. What does he need? What do I need to do to help him get there? How can I be better to convince him it’s worth joining the party? I was gifted the opportunity, which I didn’t always see as that as he was .. a lot, to listen.
I was given the opportunity to love this beast, and I did. And 7 years wasn’t enough, 12 years old for a horse isn’t a long enough life, but when is enough time when your soul mate? He started my training journey, he granted me so many opportunities to learn and then teach other horses and then other people. Without this horse, I wouldn’t be where I am, in all aspects. There simply isn’t words to accurately describe the love I shared with this horse, he was undeniably mine, and I was unconditionally his.
I wanted to share this on this page as I feel it’s important to give credit where it’s due, and to share the why behind my business. He was and is the why. I had a person say who was a big part of his life, “ no one could have loved him better then you did, know that “ and that was so special. At that point I knew I did right by him-
A favourite quote of him which always sits with me when I get overwhelmed with grief is this from John green. “ Some infinities are bigger than other infinities... I cannot tell you how grateful I am for our little infinity. You gave me forever within the numbered days, and I'm grateful.” ―
These photos are from our final days, our last photo shoot. I was gifted these from a wonderful and talented friend, her photography is Krystaleigh photography.
Thank you all for taking the time to read this, he was a true heart horse. My once in a lifetime.