13/08/2024
3 weeks after Boogie ~ who really was my world ~ suddenly dies of a suspected blood clot……
- My one in a million, dream horse Ari, who fully held my heart - is found on the ground, and could not get up. After several hours of trying to get her up, with 5 people and the vet. The decision had to be made to let her go.
Ari had no prior symptoms that were noticed whatsoever. 12 years young, eating/ drinking.
One can only say they are “heartbroken” so many times. I don’t think there is much left to break.
I don’t know why I am being challenged in this way. It doesn’t even seem satistically possible. My brain hasn’t fully comprehended it, I don’t think.
To the people who, supported Ari and I through this terrible event - I am forever indebted. I doubt I’ll ever be able to say how much.
In a crisis you really see who is there for you, and what people are made of.
No one wants to tell someone their heart horse has passed. No one wants to drop work to pick up their friend who can’t move from shock, and grief. No one wants to cradle a horses head in their arms and tell them how loved they are - while they are released from pain. No one wants to stay up all night guarding a body from predators. Yet people did those things for us.
It’s hard for me to function at the moment. My brain is in a fog. I’m trying to take things slowly, and prioritise the most important work, animal care things. So I’m not necessarily responding to other communications.
Trying to find some peace, and healing. It’s been an incredibly hard year. In fact the last 4 or 5 have been. I need to figure out how to move into a more serene place.
