02/01/2026
I'm going to talk to you guys, because I feel like you will understand it more than a lot of people in my life. I have been missing Rush and Jazzy so much lately so much. Me and Rush's mom got engaged, and we also found out we are having our first child in June. Two both very exciting things but two things that Rush and Jazzy were always supposed to be part of. Always planned on rush being part of our wedding since day 1, being my best man. Rush and Jazzy being Big brother and sister to my future baby. We find out if our baby is going to be a boy or a girl the week of Rush's birthday (Jan 28th). I realized this last night and completely broke down. I miss them every day. Rush was my best friend, he grounded me with my anxiety disorder and depression. Jazzy was my wild but loving and caring girl. I was thinking about them so much last night because of the fireworks and how much they both hated them.
This morning I was looking at the bookshelf where his Urn is at and I have a Panda bobble head right below his urn and it was moving on its own for over 30 minutes, I didn't touch the bookshelf or anything. I even tried jumping hours after to make the bobble head movie and it wouldn't. It was a bitter sweet feeling knowing he was checking up on me. He has done this one time before with the same bobble head. Jazzy when she passed away would drop this one ball off the shelf randomly late at night. Happened several times. She was obsessed with fetch and I knew it was her. Both times there was no fear in my body just sadness.
Thanks for listening. It always reassuring that Rush had so many people who loved him.
