05/06/2024
One entire trip around the sun without you, sweet Birdie girl.
A trip I didn't think I'd survive.
This has undoubtedly been the most difficult year of my life.
And it doesn't get any easier from here.
Life will never be the same.
I will never be the same.
I miss you endlessly, Birdie.
The longing for you and your unconditional love never lessens.
My heart shatters over & over again every time I think of you.
Nothing could ever fill the void for the love that I've lost.
Nothing could ever replace the relationship with my sweet girl.
But although I have lost, I have gained in other ways.
I've embraced that Birdie opened a gate to the spiritual world for me, and I can connect with the world on another level.
I've met a network of amazing, supportive, like-minded women that have carried me through my grief in so many ways - from grief circles to healing events, to just holding space for me.
Without them, and my loving husband of course, this journey would be tremendously more difficult.
They are my legs when I can't walk through my grief alone.
They are my lungs when I can't breathe through the pain.
I am forever grateful for their love & support.
I've become a certified Reiki Level 2 practitioner - for myself, and for Walter 🐾 I hope to eventually extend that offering to pets in palliative care & their grieving owners.
I've attended a Grief Informed Training, to one day be able to host my very own Grief Circle on our property, so that the garden may hold others on their grief journey.
I've built a foundation to start my own business - The Enchanted Pine, in memory of my sweet girl. I've started off selling my handcrafted candles, but will soon extend that to other handcrafted & homegrown herbal items.
It was my intention to donate 10% of my revenue from selling said candles at the Psychic Faire back in April, to the National Canine Cancer Foundation.
Today, I decided to triple that donation, making it $333 - as Birdie had crossed over at 3:33am.
Birdie's diagnosis was so advanced, that she was not a candidate for surgery, and chemo did not help. All the money in the world could not have saved her. So it is my hope that our donation in her name will help save someone else's furry family member.
I love you forever, my sweet Birdie girl ❤️🩹🩷✨️🐾🌈
