28/01/2025
I’m not making this post to justify myself and my decisions to people who will disagree, I’m making this post to let others know it is COMPLETELY OKAY to give your dog back to the breeder or rehome if it isn’t working out.
Emmi will be going back to her wonderful breeder this week. I’ve been blessed to have this girl in my life for 4 months, but unfortunately- it wasn’t working out. I’ve made this decision after many discussions with myself about whether it was right or not, however I know it would be selfish not to allow her to find a home better suited where she can thrive.
I’m still grieving heavily, and I am yet to correctly process what happened to Otto. I’m not going to hide it or lie about it- Emmi was in some ways a rushed decision. Yes, she was planned before we lost Otto (god, I have planned to have a standard poodle for the past 6 years- she was the most planned dog I’ve owned) but she came at a time which meant I hadn’t given myself time to grieve correctly. Instead of giving myself time and waiting- I still went for her, because her litter was exactly what I’d wanted for so long. Yes, she was what I wanted- but I didn’t consider if she was what I needed at the time.
I need to give myself a few months off personal dog ownership (Ada will be staying, she’s my boyfriend’s dog first and foremost- I just get to do a lot of fun things with her), and to say it nicely- sort my s**t out. It’s unfair of any dog to come into my life right now, as mentally I cannot offer what one really needs from me.
I’m not ready to form a strong relationship with a new dog yet, and I’m just grateful I’ve realised this whilst Emmi is still so young and adaptable.
It’s okay to admit you are not the right home for a dog (even if it’s just a temporary thing and you end up getting another dog with time!), or a dog isn’t right for your home. And it’s better to let the dog go to a better situation than one you can offer, than to live with both of you not being as happy as you could be.
Thank you Emmi for the past few months. You’re a firecracker, and you deserve all the best in your forever home❤️