03/07/2024
WARNING - POTENTIALLY TRIGGERING POST
Oh the tears,
I want to share a heartfelt update about Gus-Gus. Recently, we took him to Colorado State University Animal Hospital for what we hoped would be a routine visit and neuter. After finding out he had spinal stenosis in addition to his chronic ear infections that would require multiple surgeries with ongoing treatment and subsequent pain from both, due to a gut feeling we chose to hold off on his neuter. Despite all of his pain and challenges, he remained a sweet, resilient, and fun-spirited little man! If he was in, we were in. Plans were forming to bring him back for CT and surgical planning.
He was devouring his food like a champ and after being given pain medication, had a joyful and carefree day running around the farm where we were staying. It was the most room he'd ever seen in his entire life, and it was the first time we ever saw him do a binki! He was sniffing and chinning everything in sight and clearly enjoying every moment! We sat back, filled with joy, marveling at his happiness.
In the evening, after a day filled with running and exploring, Gus-Gus was extra snuggly. We shared a nap together, and when I tried to gently move him back to his carrier, he insisted on staying close with a very polite "toothing". It was during those quiet moments that he passed away in my arms. It was so unexpected, and I was not prepared. We've had a system for going on 9 months, so even now every 12 hours I'm prepared to go interact with him, and he's not there. No meds, no cares, no brushing, cleaning, no ointment, my happy-go-lucky derpy man isn't there and I have to keep re-remembering.
Gus-Gus was more than just a rescue or a pet; he was a part of this family, a fighter who wanted to live and demonstrated true resilience and love. Despite his health struggles, he found moments of joy and comfort with us, especially on his last day.
Since December, we've lost 4 buns, 2 during surgery, 1 we had to choose euthanasia, and now one in my arms. Not sure if it's cumulative, but this loss seems to cut extra deep. Perhaps it's just because we knew him the longest, or perhaps it's because we hadn't had the chance to complete all the surgeries he needed to find his health.
Thank you all for your support during this emotional time. Gus-Gus the derpy-derp will be deeply missed, and we will never forget him. Please also understand if we do not respond, just need some time to digest.
Love & Light everyone,
HHRRA