10/02/2026
Hi all. It's been a long time, and I apologize for that. It's going to be a long post, so bear with me.
I've been quiet because we went through some huge, very difficult life changes and it took me a very long time to heal from that. Seymour's dad and I separated, and I had to leave the business too. It's ok now, we have restarted our lives and have been happier than ever. Big Butts is almost 12 now, and his big ole hips are slowing him down, but his happy spirit is still the same. Over the years he has met thousands of people, and still showers each new human with love whether they want it or not. He's been my heart dog. My constant shadow. Where I go, if I can bring him, Seymour comes too. He's still funny as ever, I've never met a funnier dog with his silly antics and human like expressions. He thinks he's a people.
Sadly, we got the news this week that Seymour's abdomen is absolutely full of cancer and blood pockets. The vet says he doesn't have a lot of time left, and I have to make a choice. Ironically, the cancer is benign, but is growing so fast that it is taking up too much room. It is also full of blood pockets, and what is going to get him is when one of those blood pockets bursts. This all happened in the last 6 months, which is crazy to think about. The problem is that he's acting fine, he's in no pain from it, but he's a ticking time bomb. He's going to be almost normal and then one day or night it's randomly and quickly going to happen. I feel so conflicted. I can't make that decision when he's still living his best life and happy. On the other hand it's winter here, the ground is frozen,he's 100 lbs, and it might happen when there's no one to help me move him.
I don't know what to do. I'm just heartbroken and confused.
