07/01/2025
I'm starting 2025 slowly this year. No intense goals, no tight deadlines I can't possibly meet- just measured breathing asking what is the next step.
These past few years have felt like being on a sinking ship with only a leaky bucket to bail out water. I've worried about the collapse of ecosystems (Doug Tallamy has excellent books), stressed over the state of agriculture, and wondered if I was doing enough to change anything.
Of course I am, and I'm also not. I am doing my best to steward the land I have, to bring back natives, to grow food and ornamentals in the best way for nature. But while my acre of land IS significant, I cannot be the only one. I cannot be an island. I need to understand that no amount of my increasing anxiety will make a tree grow faster. That just isn't how it's done.
So this year we are still working, still planning, still setting goals and hoping and dreaming. But I'm also letting go of the need to have my space be perfect now and feeling like I have to fix everything.
We need community. We need people working together. I am a highly introverted person, and it can be very hard to talk to people I do know about things I care about, let alone people I don't know. I gotta start somewhere though, so here we are.
I cannot fix everything. But perhaps I can take one step at a time, and trust that just like the trees, we'll grow into something lovely as well.
#2025