13/09/2019
This week, the dogs have told me a bunch of amazing, sweet, painful, joyful, funny, difficult, inspiring, daring, silly, courageous, kind, awful, loving, confusing, horribly honest, heartful things.
Some of them hurt.
Some felt triumphant.
Some made me afraid (*Grief, why am I so scared of you, still! Even after all this time, all our meetings, all that we've shared. Still, YOU frighten me with your straight talk and that way you fix me with THAT unblinking, oh s**t, I can't escape now, stare. I think it's known as 'the death stare', for that reason).
They talked about control.
About anger.
Frustration.
About freedom.
Oppression.
Fun.
Voice.
Play.
About being misunderstood.
Being heard.
About being deeply loved.
About those pesky BIG FEELINGS.
The ones that will let us breath again.
If we agree to stop drowning ourselves, long enough.
They shared about how they weave their magic in our lives.
In our families.
In the world.
They asked me to show up, and strip off.
They told me it's time.
To get fu***ng real.
One of the big messages for me, that has shown up, again and again, is this:
Until I stop looking for validation from the outside, I won't be able to serve the animals in the way they are asking me to.
What that means is...
I have to trust my knowing.
I have to find, and use, my voice.
I have to express my self. In order to hear them.
When I'm caught up in asking "is this okay? Am I allowed to be this? Am I too much, or too crazy weird? What if I get it wrong?", that voice inside my head, drowns out what is real.
What they say.
What they know, and want us to remember.
I'm sharing this today, because the animals want us all to come clean, about who we are.
And not just on social media, but in the deepest places of our selves. Show up in our lives, and in each other's.
And with them.
Be.
WITH them.
Read that again. Then, go find an animal to sit with♡
Or a plant. They're in on this too.
My heart is sweetly full, of love for you all.
And the animals.
The dogs.
The dogs.
They've moved me to tears so many times, and in so many ways this week.
I guess I must be getting the message xx