01/07/2025
I knew today was going to be tough. We got some heartbreaking news last week but we were so busy I could bury my broken heart. But I knew today was going to be the day that reality took hold.
Last week we were told that Sirius had passed away. I say it like everyone knows who Sirius is, because everyone DOES know who Sirius is. Sirius was the park (solo) welcoming committee. He was so social he would walk around with other packs ALL THE TIME! All the dogs knew Sirius, all the WALKERS knew Sirius. The always smiling dog who lit up any room or park he was in. The goodest of boys.
Sirius was my first pick up of every single day. No matter how my morning was going (remember, I had probably been in traffic for at least an hour before getting there) I would show up and his smiling face was always there to greet me. I can still hear his tail smacking the wall, his nails gripping the hardwood, and his happy little huffs as he barreled down the stairs. Was it me? Was it because I came bearing treats? 🤷♂️ All I do know is he made every day start with a smile.
I thought it was going to hit me today as I went straight through to the DVP without getting off at "Sirius' stop" the 401. But it didn't really hit me until I got to Hank's. Hank was my 2nd stop of the day and he's a little older than Sirius. Which means Hank and Sirius were on almost every single walk they've ever had with us together. That hit home. How do I tell Hank? Charlie Brown, the other dog that's been on all those walks? They'll miss him too! He has sooooo many friends!
I actually told another walker about Sirius as soon as we found out (Besides Trish who is obviously family!). He was such a good friend of Sirius I wanted him to know from me before he may have heard through the grapevine. Jer was definitely in Sirius' inner circle and needed to know. Jer came and gave me a hug today at the park and I almost broke down and cried. I had to tell him I couldn't talk about it right now. I wonder how Sirius would have handled that? Probably just would have asked for a butt rub and carried on as usual.
At the end of this day, having broken down in my van multiple times throughout, I just want to say, I MISS YOU SO MUCH! My heart breaks for your family, who might just be the nicest family I've ever met. I'm sure you learned it all from them, Sirius. I have spent 8 hours a day with you for almost 10 years. I filled the middle of the van today because I couldn't take looking at that empty spot. You are the goodest boy! The best boy!...and I can't believe you are gone 💔 Ryan
