04/08/2025
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šŖš“ A difficult truth, rarely spoken out loud -
šā¤The (Subtle) Emotional Punchbag Relationshipā¤š
Some people donāt realise theyāve chosen horses not for real partnership, but to have something to release their deeper feelings on.
The horse becomes the one they can constantly correct, control, pick at, tell off. A living target for all the frustration, helplessness, fear, insecurity, or pain that they donāt feel safe expressing elsewhere. It's not obvious ā it never looks like abuse. But itās a pattern. A quiet, persistent drip of disapproval. A constant ni**le. An incessant chorus of clicking and clucking. A need to always win the conversation. They may even call it love.
But somehow, the horse is always wrong.
Too slow. Too reactive. Too stubborn. Too much.
Itās the age-old story of ākicking the dogā ā except now it wears the latest matchy-matchy, made to measure boots and a designer saddle, and calls itself horsemanship.
The tragedy is that these people often believe theyāre doing things āright.ā They follow the techniques. They say the right words. But their energy tells a different story ā one the horse hears loud and clear. Underneath the cues is a constant pressure: be better, be less, behave, shut down, sleep walk into a zombie state of learned helplessness.
But this isnāt partnership.
Itās projection.
Itās a power play, disguised as training.
Itās using a horse to soothe something unspoken ā an ache, a wound, a need, a deep dissatisfaction they havenāt dared to meet in themselves.
And the horse becomes their emotional punchbag.
But hereās the thing: horses donāt exist to absorb what we donāt want to feel.
They arenāt here to regulate our chaos, prove our worth, or make us feel in control of a life that isnāt working.
They are sentient beings with their own stories. Their own thresholds.
They feel it all ā especially what we wonāt name.
So if we really care about our horses, maybe we need to ask:
Am I showing up to connect⦠or to offload?
To build something⦠or to dominate?
To relate⦠or to offload what I canāt stand in myself?
Because they know the difference.
And deep down ā so do we. We owe it to our horses (and ourselves) to put these things aside when we arrive at the barn.