Ascend Sanctuary

17/12/2022

today I threw out my bag of makeup, self help books, the goals, plans and beliefs that were based on illusions of my mind instead of truths from my heart. I am finally getting to know what it is like to live from my heart instead of projections of mind. ♥️

12/12/2022

Preparing to be reborn yet again and this time on my birthday and in the lush jungle of Costa riccaaaa ✨🌴harmonizing with self and nature one integration at a time. 🌿

Signing off for a bit to dive deep and take my time to integrate. Love you all ♥️

31/10/2022

Compassion is my compass ♥️✨🌿
I remember first moving to the big city from a small town and seeing people living on the streets for the first time. I remember how much I cried those first few months living in the city because of how much compassion I felt for them but also bc I didn’t know what to do with it. At the time I felt something was wrong with me, why did I feel like I was the only one? Why couldn’t I just disconnect or numb out like everyone else walking down the streets? Soon I too learned to cope.

In a society which expects numbness and dissociation to survive. (Which are the bodies intelligent strategies to cope by the way) I have been learning to honour my compassion and feel it deeply and rather than feeling helpless in it when I see others in suffering or distress I use my compassion as my guide and I mobilize, I step in the direction of compassion and where it wants me to go. I am learning not to be afraid of it anymore. Every day I find new ways to ground deeper into integrity with both myself, others and mama earth 🌎🌿✨ we are one living breathing organism and our work is to harmonize with ourselves, our brothers and sisters here and mama 🌎 to remember our wholeness, that we are not as separate as our culture has conditioned us to believe. may compassion be your guide & the 🌎be your teacher 🪞✨🌿 have a sweet Monday dear ones. With love always 💛

26/02/2021

I am focused on the woman I want to be. As oppose to the things I want. Because by the time I am her, I’ll already have everything I want. 🦋🦋

18/02/2021

Ive been noticing as I create opportunities of stillness with the purpose to just feel whatever is arising for me & allow myself to fully experience, without attachment or judgment to the emotions or sensations in my body, I feel myself softening into the depths of my heart. Into a deeper self love & trust & connection to the limitless of who I am.

10/02/2021

I am so excited to be integrating & to have found a much deeper understanding of what I stand for and what I want in a partner and how I want to show up in my life. I am also so incredibly grateful for the supportive messages, comments & and all the love that has been pouring into my heart from this virtual community & close friends around me. It’s been so healing during this transition. I wanted to share a few news learnings from this past experience that I’ve found so much clarity in.

NEW INTEGRATIONS & LESSONS 💛

⚡️if you don’t feel in your power, your power never left, and it was never and can never be taken from you, it can only be suppressed. Someone who wants control over you will drain your energy by pulling your primary focus onto their problems. & trying to fix someone else, just pulls you away from yourself & out of your power. Stand up, & reclaim your power by walking away from anything that makes you feel pulled away from yourself.

⚡️Someone can be there for you physically, and it can look great on the outside, but if not emotionally and all the ways that matter on a deeper level, it feels empty. Support goes deeper than surface levels.

How does the person make you FEEL? I know more than ever I want to feel more empowered. More liberated. More myself. Happier, more peaceful, joyful & alive. This is what I stand for.

⚡️The only person you need to trust is in yourself. and then make a decision if someone is worthy of your trust from that place. Trust isn’t given, it’s earned over time.

⚡️Be wary of someone who always plays the victim card. This is a passive way to live & someone with this pattern will blame everything else while mitigating responsibility for themselves. There are no excuses for disrespect. Period.

⚡️The most important thing I know I want in a partner is someone grounded in his morals and knows himself inside & out. This is priceless and is what makes someone a solid & stable human.

The universe will always give you not what you want but what you need. 💛

05/02/2021

I felt so much shame around this but I value being transparent & know that shame thrives in darkness. I had to remind myself that no one is perfect. You are allowed to be imperfect, give yourself permission.

I am sharing this because I live to stand in my truth.

Recently I’ve ended a 9 month relationship that has taught me a lot.

Two months into the relationship my intuition began to tell me that something was off.

I ignored the gut feeling because I wanted to believe the best in the person I loved, cared for and saw a future with. As I continued to give my whole self to the relationship I could tell in my body something was wrong. I felt exhausted, anxious, confused, irritated, lower self esteem and had a difficult time focusing on my work.  I didn't feel myself, my soul felt sad and I had this underlying feeling that I was not free.

The more I reached out to friends for support, researched & reflected on my experiences, I began to see the manipulation, pathological lying, condescending remarks, gaslighting & infidelity.

Heres the thing, some abuse is subtle, you cant see it, you just begin to feel the effects over time.

Since making this decision, i feel so light, I feel free, i feel in alignment & I feel me again.

Heres what I learned:
TRUST YOURSELF. You don't need physical evidence when something feels off.
Your support circle are the humans who will help you realize you are not alone, even if a significant other makes you feel that way.
Stay true to yourself no matter what and trust that you will feel better (and find better 😉)
Don’t feel guilty for not seeing it all & leaving sooner. Be gentle with yourself.
thank you for letting me transparent with you.❤️

03/02/2021

If you have questions, or are in limbo, don’t push, don’t search and become anxious to find an answer right away. Have patience my love.

The answer comes when you are ready. It will come, it might take a long time, or it might take a short time, but regardless of the length of time it might take, don’t rush it, don’t cling on, instead, give yourself permission to let go of control & ask the universe to give you the answers, then set it down & trust that it will come and it will.

Sometimes a choice is choosing not to know the answer right away. ❤️

02/02/2021

Took a little breather off social media after my virtual studio launch as a little gift to myself 🥰

I’m so freaking grateful to my 18 year old self who chose this path. I’m also grateful to be incredibly “busy” & have this opportunity to share & make a difference in people’s lives through the gift of yoga, knowledge & wisdom and at the same time put a roof over my head and food on my table, and support others to do the same!

I do want to share the other side to entrepreneurship, because I feel that it’s glamorized on the regggg.

I mean, I used to glamorize it. Until, I began my journey as one.

Being an entrepreneur no one really speaks about what goes into the back end of things, especially at the beginning. The countless late & sleepless nights & early mornings, no days off (at the beginning) the ups & downs, the moments where you just want to throw in the towel, or feel so overwhelmed with everything you need to do, you’re frozen( you learn how to manage this as time goes on) the self work it takes to be able to hold the responsibility (when there’s a block in your business, there’s usually a block within yourself), the times where you just would much rather lay in bed & chill then work for 15 hours, the hours spent just learning & trouble shooting & creating things that you have no certainty will flourish. It take so much trust. Trust in yourself. Trust in life, it takes resilience, a tremendous amount of courage and risk, patience... a lot a lot a lot of that & the ability to see the opportunity in everything. To see what hasn’t been manifested into reality yet. I could go on forever about this list, but you get my point.

I glamorized online yoga teachers until I became one. You might think teachers just teach yoga all the time. An online yoga teacher, is a desk job. I spend more time working at my desk then teaching yoga. (Reality)

So if you’re creating right now, or not on this exact path, don’t be fooled by shiny objects and the things that look perfect. Remember there is always a shadow side to everything. There is no perfect way. You are where you need to be, no rush, no pressure. You are enough, as you are, where you are. Keep going ❤️🪴

19/01/2021

Dear my lovely friends,

I have been pouring my heart and soul into creating a safe and affordable way that is accessible for all bodies to practice the healing & powerful gift of yoga & mindful movement. I am so beyond excited to share my passion for this practice with you & also for everything this space will blossom and grow into with your love. ✨🌸🧘🏽‍♀️

Your support means everything to me. I couldn’t be here or do this without you so thank you. ❤️

A bit about your virtual studio:

This is a community of humans who are committed to constant evolution 🪴

PRACTICE ANYTIME ANYWHERE ✨

What’s included:
☆ Four fresh classes uploaded weekly.
☆ Ability for members to make special video requests.
☆ Unlimited access to all drop in Zoom classes.
☆ Unlimited yoga, mat pilates, pranayama & meditation.
☆ Continuous member support & communication.
☆ Cancel at anytime.

25 CAD PER MONTH / 20 USD PER MONTH
that’s equivalent to one drop in class, for a month of unlimited!

To register, find Online Studio link in bio!

I can’t wait to practice with you virtually on the mat! 🧘🏽‍♀️✨💛

Love,
Tash
xx

18/01/2021

18/01/2021