16/12/2024
tomorrow morning, one year ago, i would wake up to the heartbreaking news that you were gone. you left us today. i prayed it wasn't true as i scrambled to find answers across land and sea. in desperation, i even tried to call you but i must have known you wouldn't pick up. you would never pick up again. i had been hoping to hear back from you for days prior to this morning; i knew you were sick and i later learnt that you were too exhausted and unwell to respond. this time of year isn't all sleigh bells, holly and jolly. for many people, it is a time for grieving, remembrance and pain. at this time of year, we also unexpectedly lost our beloved Romanian tripod dog who we still miss and is the reason we have our current lookalike dog. two wonderful Romanians lost from our lives at this most magical time of the year. i am teaching my brain not to look back, as the memories that live there can be 'Altogether Mighty Frightening' as No Doubt rightfully described it in their emotive song. i know you are now with all your rescued animals who have also passed over. i know you are now looking after our two that we adopted from you. and please know that we are looking after Meowsy for you. yes, Maria, we adopted one more from you, one of the cats sadly left behind when you left us forever. he is just as wonderful as the other two and we're so glad we followed our hearts in adopting one of those left behind. we did it for you. always in my heart, Maria. i look forward to the day when we can finally meet in person, after all those years of friendship, support, love, laughs, sadness, tears, but most of all - always most of all - hope. i hope you did not suffer too much, Maria. i hope you know how loved you were by so many. i hope you realise what a marvellous thing you did here on earth. i hope you are somewhere safe now. i hope you are back with all your loved ones. i hope we will meet one day. i hope.