11/03/2024
The longer it took for the ER to call I felt was the better, maybe they would find something and have to take him to surgery and that would take more time. The phone rang sooner rather than later and it wasn't anything I wanted to hear. Levon was deteriorating more and more and inside his stomach was a huge mass, his stomach had lots of grass in it and that was what we were seeing in the two X-rays, Levon trying to feel better by eating grass but it wasn't anything that would make him feel better.
I had no options, my back up agains the wall, I told them to wake him up, I was on my way. I got to hold him and look into his eyes and tell him over and over again what a good man he is, and how much I love him. I just cannot believe that I have lost this dog as he quietly faded away. I feel like I've been beaten and robbed. I feel like my heart has been removed, between Bea and Levon I just don't think I can cope. I told my family I just don't know if I want to love dogs anymore it hurts too much.
This precious good man was only 6 years old, three of those years he lived in a filthy mill being beat up and mangled by other dogs covered in wounds, three years ago Ricky Barnes went to pick him up when he was lucky enough to be purchased by our rescue, I fell in love with him the first time I laid my eyes on him and it never changed. He was simply the most affectionate, sweetest, loveliest dog I have ever owned. If I was sitting, he was beside me touching me, if I was sleeping he was by my side every single night, all night.
I loved this dog more than I can even put into words and I am so mad, and I feel so robbed to lose him at 6 years old from F%^ #$ #%% cancer.
I have to step away, I need to be alone, there is nothing to make it better, nothing to heal the pain this has left. 3 days ago I had a dog that had an upset stomach, today I said goodbye.
If you want to do anything for me, I would love it if you made a little donation in the name of this very good man, so in his honor we can rescue more dogs just like him suffering in mills every damn day.
I love you so much Levon, and I will miss you forever
https://dogranchrescue.com/make-a-donation/
I am unsure when the page will return, I just hurt too much right now.