05/29/2024
So many of you have lost precious loved ones recently, or are planning to.
Family and pets.
Some of the best horses I’ve ever known have left for greener pastures this year, this week.
I was too weak to be there for a couple I would have otherwise wanted to. I tried, and it choked me.
The loss. It compounds.
I don’t go to funerals anymore. I can’t.
It isn’t selfish to protect what little 🔥 I have left in my own soul.
I grieve. I grieve alone and with friends. But we grieve in private. We grieve in private because we grieve so hard. Because it is daily.
For our fathers, our brothers, our pets, children…..
We know it doesn’t matter to the world, but it matters to us.
Your horses matter to me. And the people I love, even if I didn’t know your family, I hate to see you hurting. I hate that you’re losing someone so close. So important to who you are as a being
The world is hurting.
So many want to pretend it’s all fine, and we can stay positive and try to hope for that, but
I know it’s not fine. I know here in this moment you wish they were here. I’m here for the real people. We can admit. It’s not fine, it’s “fine-enough” we go on.
I know plans were different.
I know you had things to share with them.
I know for a good soul, two legged or four, naked or furry, that no length of time is enough.
Major, Dolly, Chief, Radish- and many more this year and prior.
Our fathers . Past lives. People we thought we knew. Grieve all of it. It isn’t meant to be forgotten. But life goes on.
