04/11/2024
All this time all I ever wanted was to be a part of my family. And now that I’m here all I wanna do is leave. Like I have never been around a more dysfunctional group of people in my life. That includes myself I’m not perfect I have issues. Difference Is I accept them and don’t blame every single person, animal or inanimate object around me for every single issue and shortcoming and anything that doesn’t go the way that I think it should. Like I don’t understand let’s treat someone like a complete piece of s**t. Talk s**t about them every single day belittle everything about them including their disabilities that are caused by living and knowing them. Like let’s go ahead and treat people like that then go and expect them to kiss ass and act like everything is A -ok when ain’t nothing ever been ok. So let’s do that then get on the phone and talk s**t to anyone that will listen about how fu**ed up and messed up someone is because they won’t kiss ur ass because you treat them worse than an animal. And don’t even see how ignorant and fu**ed that you are being. I missed my chance at family and a life I don’t recommend anyone do and make the moves that I did. It’s very lonely depressing and just not agreeable for long life and happiness. I have never been more miserable and just defeated in all that I have been through that I am now in the last almost 3 years. Like I’m trying to keep at least my nose above water but when you have so much against you and so many like what’s even the point anymore. Even writing this I guarantee someone is gonna think it’s about them and start running their s**t flapper but I don’t care if you think it’s about you then maybe you have something to work on I used no names except my own because I don’t believe in point out peoples fu**ed up shortcomings they don’t matter to me the person honesty and loyal that’s what means something