12/11/2024
Rest easy RobertâŚyou earned everything I gave you in life and then someâŚI always wish thereâs more I could do when these things happen but you told me when it was time and I listened even though I didnât want to.
No matter the years in this industry. No matter the level of which you delve into w veterinary medicine or just own a horse. No matter how many youâve purchased, how many youâve started, how many youâve sold, how many youâve kept and how many youâve let go to their final resting placeâŚit never gets easier. And this one hits quite a bit harder than some.
We took Robert and his two GFs, Katie and Cocoa, over to the Townsend property in the cold, pouring rain in the middle of December and we made the best of what we could. Huge thank you to the best instructor, Kara for helping us out and staying in the wet and the cold until the very end! We set up a âcampâ underneath one of the old run in sheds w hay, water, hay stretcher, all the cookies you could eat, some carrots and topped it off w a nice dark beer. Each kid that was here today has had their little bums on your backâŚsome âluckyâ enough to have been snaked off by your rotten little head shake âbuckâ to earn their dusty butt award because they werenât doing something correctlyâŚenough. And after thatâŚyou reminded them the reason you always get back onâŚbecause you can and because you still learn. Not to be afraidâŚbut to be brave. Something you did for our little girl and her best friend. You were the one who truly taught Kass to canter and were the first one to canter w her soloâŚsomething she will never forget. You helped Quinn through confidence issues (some that you gave her) and even at only 8âŚsheâs thankful for that. You toted little Oliver around at a bday party wearing a unicorn horn and hated every minute but you did your job and kept him safe when he was far smaller than âkeeping safeâ made for an easy job. And Penelope. Stubborn, stoic, brave little Penelope..my niece..my âother baby girlâ. You were the first for her to ride, the first to jog, the first to jog solo, the first for her for weeks of camp to the point she was able to move up to a harder horse. And when I braided that piece of mane, cut it off and handed it to herâŚthe tears she fought so hard to keep back were ever so present. When I asked her if she knew why I was giving it to HERâŚshe knew why and she will cherish that for the rest of her life. Youâve been the best lesson horse for Kara, Grace and IâŚyouâve taught my husband well, youâve been the bestest boy for all the fancy shows, while hitting the trails wasnât your favorite you toted around your leaser for quiet rides and youâve been the first and only for SO many people in this lifetime of yours.
Cutting your tail was harder and the last braid I cut out I felt like I took a part of my heart w it. I cried. Quite a bit. Once you wentâŚso peacefully and quickly, reassuring me it was the right choice even on a good dayâŚI had to sit w you for a bit. Look at all your greying spots, your soft nose that would normally be crinkling at me, those adorable cute, tiny ears w all the fluff and take in that one last breath of you. We took your halterâŚand allowed the girls their last goodbyes. Goodbyes that, for 8 year old horse girls, are only one of the few theyâve already said and one of the few they will sadly have to say. Goodbyes they chose, after you were down, to say on their own termsâŚcomforting each other every time one would cry. Staying there w them is NEVER enough time and you just want to see an ear twitch or a breath takenâŚ.this feel impossible sometimes.
Sometimes I think every time I have to make this decision or help making this choice for a friend/clientâŚI lose a part of myself. And think I do. And I really do wonder just how much my soul can take of thisâŚbecause sometimes, like today and sadly many more to come being in this industry, it felt like you took way more than others.
As alwaysâŚa huge thank you to Dr Shannon (Dr Graham) w our incredible vets Monadnock Equine Veterinary Services for again making the trek out to the Townsend property and laying another of my beloved friends to rest so peacefully. The job you and your techs do is thankless, unforgiving and utterly exhaustingâŚso thank you for all you do. Thank you for being there for my boy (and us) today in this miserable weather.