12/11/2024
As some of you know, within the past week, I have said goodbye to the man I loved for 5 years, euthanized the mare who started my surrender program ten years ago and the very next day euthanized a mare I wasn’t ready to give up on.
Yesterday I got up at 530a to get on the treadmill, shower, make breakfast and go to my ft job. I then got home to fix fence, feed horses and clean stalls until 1145p. I laid my head on the pillow feeling accomplished and capable.
Today I have chosen to accept defeat in the best interest of my horses. Mango, who finished her $1,300 EPM treatment about a month ago, was kicked in the knee during turn-in and I believe I will be euthanizing her.
Additionally my property is flooding due to a beaver dam I have no control over.
I am still unable to find someone to repair fence, and will not be able to install all new fencing until the summer weather arrives. (New fencing was scheduled for this past fall, but there were some unexpected life changes.)
If anyone knows of someone who is capable of maintaining my fence, please put me in contact as that is the only service I am currently lacking at my facility in order to continue operating on some level.
In conclusion, due to the current challenges, I have made the decision to free lease the horses I have available through show season (& trail season) 2025. Selling is something I am debating, but as you all know, nothing will pass a PPE as I primarily operate a surrender program.
This is in the best interest of my horses, and I will figure something out, as I always have, but right now I need to relieve myself of some stress.
As for my boarders, I am making changes to the surrender program, my boarding operation is not changing.
I’m not giving up, I’ve made it this far, but I am choosing what I can handle. A few days ago, a student of mine sent a photo of my childhood horse and I reminding me why I fight this hard 🩷