09/03/2024
When you ran after the school bus and my grandma and I couldn’t find you, I burst into tears. My grandma tried to reassure me by telling me that we could ask my mom to buy another dog. I refused immediately and said I didn’t want any other dog but Snowflake. Even at 5 years old, I loved you entirely and knew there would never be a dog as great as you.
I’m 23 now, and that sentiment still holds true. I love you entirely and know there will never be a dog as great as you.
I’ve been avoiding writing anything at all because I have been telling myself that if I continue to postpone this, it will be like nothing ever happened—that your death isn’t actually official. But it is. You gave us 18 amazing years, and the least I can do is put into words just how much I (we) love you, Snowflake, even if that means acknowledging and confirming the heartbreaking reality that you are, in fact, gone.
Like a snowflake, you were unique in your form and being in every way possible. You understood words and phrases in two different languages, and you’d stand your ground against dogs twice your size. Sometimes silly, always loving. You traveled everywhere with us, including to a different country, and you were always such a good girl. Your curiosity was that of a person, and your kindness was like no other.
I will miss you when I get home from work and have no one by my side to eat with. I will miss you every morning when I walk down the stairs and see that you are not there. I will miss throwing a big party for you on your birthday, like we’ve done since you were 1. I will miss seeing the gifts under the Christmas tree that had your name on them. I will miss you when we pass the park we used to take you to, where you’d run so fast. Snowflake, I will miss you always.
There are remnants of you everywhere, so I know that while you’re there, you’re also here. Thanks for keeping a lookout through the window every day until you couldn’t anymore. I hope you’re running fast and eating all your favorite snacks and food.
I love you, Snowflake. To the best dog ever and the most incredible companion.
~Marly