03/01/2024
Angel:
04/01/2001
08/11/2020
19 years, 4 months and 10 days still wasn't long enough with you.
I can remember like it was yesterday when I got you. I remember my Mother had got a call from my Sister and she was talking to my Mother about getting me a cat. My Mother was reluctant about it, but my Sister was persistent that you would teach me responsibility.
I remember my Sister had gotten a hold of me and asked if I ever thought about getting a cat. I remember telling my Sister No, that I'm not a cat person, that I like birds. I was actually on my way that day to go out and purchase another bird. I remember I gathered my money up and I was walking out the door. as I opened it, there was my Sister with this little cat. I was so scared on if I could take care of you. but I remember she brought you in and we fed you, we sat you down in the litter box, you pooped...And from there on you instantly had my heart.
I don't even know where to begin, other than to let you know that I'm going to miss you so much! You were always there for me, through my triumphs and fails, when I was happy or sad you would always comfort me.
I'm going to miss you rubbing Against my leg, your Lil bites when we would play. You attacking olives like they were mice then you would devour them. The times I would be playing guitar and you would rub your head against the fret bord to chime in with your own tune. Us going outside and you rolling on the ground, getting all dirty, eating grass and then throwing up.
You were my best friend. Someone who never judged me, understood me and unconditionally loved me. How do you sum up 19 years in a measly post? I literally had you with me for half of my life and it's going to be so hard to continue the rest without you. I'll look back at your pictures and remember everything we were doing when they were taken. You were a huge part of my life. You turned me into the huge cat person that I am today.
It's never enough time. You got to spend your whole life with us, but we only got to spend a fraction of ours with with you. It really does seem unfair... I look back on it, and have internalized it all, and I've come up with the realization that I'll be okay. even though the pain is concentrated and it hits me all at once, I'll be ok. But if the full amount of love was to hit me in a wave like the pain...I can guarantee that it would kill me, because there was so much of it. true, honest, real and pure.
You left us on a Tuesday. I remember I got to spend the whole day with you. It was heartbreaking knowing that the last days were few and slim. I really think you held on to give me what I needed to let you go. I remember our talk. I told you how much I loved you and that you were the best cat ever! I shared our memories of playing the guitar with you, how you loved food...oh my God how you loved food! What you ment to me. How everybody thought you were so beautiful. I remember I said it was okay for you to go.
I remember at 5AM I was trying to sleep and you were at the foot of the bed and my Mother coughed. You got up and circled over to me like you were going to lay down next to me one more time. You returned to the end of the bed.
I found you at 6:02AM. I woke up and you were not there in the bedroom. I checked the front room and kitchen. I found you in the bathroom peaceful and finally at rest.
I'm going to miss you so much Angel. I love you so much! I was so blessed and thankful that you came into my life and allowed me to care and love you. I'm happy I was able to tell you everything that I did, so you knew how much you were loved. If there is a heaven Somewhere over rainbow Bridge, then I will forever look forward to the day when I am with you again. I love you so much Angel.