01/06/2021
“Change is the only constant in life.” – Heraclitus, a Greek philosopher
In August of 2016, life at Hideout Ranch – life for me personally – changed abruptly. My beloved Sambora left this world at 32 in the kindest, most peaceful way a cherished first horse could leave. This momentous event was followed closely by losing Warner, my darling, enormous nine-year-old Black Angus steer, to whatever sudden illness or event took him. Compounding these blows mere days later were the violent yet purely random deaths by lightning of Wyatt, 10, and Logan, 14, two of our star geldings in the absolute prime of their lives. Despite the pall cast over the ranch with the loss of four treasured, much-loved animals in brutally rapid succession, Craig and I soldiered on through the heartache.
Then, barely six months later, Craig lost his longer-than-he-let-on battle with cancer, and life changed again – in an even more extreme way. But I soldiered on. Through the heartache. Through the confusion. Through the decisions. Through the constant that is change.
Since losing those four animals, certainly since losing Craig, countless things have changed for me, for the animals, for the ranch. Things also changed for the guests as Hideout Ranch became a “Western Bed & Breakfast”, instead of a “working cattle and guest ranch”. Of the 42 horses here when Craig was, three remain – Riches, Kachina, and Orrin. Of the eight donkeys, it is just Po Campo. Rucker is the only dog. The goat herd numbers 10 instead of 16, and even the Prisoners of Azkaban have been reduced in number. The absence of cattle is palpable.
Life does not ask you if you want it to change. Life doesn’t give you warning or notice, and certainly not an opportunity to negotiate. Life changes, then challenges you to play the cards it just contemptuously flipped at you.
For these coming-on five years, I have played those cards. Sometimes well. Sometimes poorly. But I have played them. Every day. However, as the late Kenny Rogers sagely counseled, you have to know when to hold and when to fold.
And when to walk away…
To say this is difficult is an impertinent underestimation. However, it is time both the ranch and I take an uncharted, albeit forked, trail. The physical ranch has been sold and will assume a new identity with a fresh purpose, while I ride toward a different horizon to continue honouring Craig’s passion for guest-ranching, for teaching people about horses and for living the cowboy way. “Hideout Ranch” will come with me in name and spirit, remaining firmly in our hearts as we continue to ride together in our memories. The website will be revamped to reflect the perpetuation of Craig’s legacy. The “Hideout Ranch” social media presence will undergo some adaptations, as well, but you’ll be always be able to follow Rucker’s adventures, as well as the Inmates, the goats, and of course, Po Campo and his horses.
Hundreds and hundreds of guests may have come in under the crossbars as strangers, but they left Hideout Ranch as friends, as family. We were privileged to be part of honeymoons and bachelor parties, family vacations and mother-daughter bonding excursions. We taught novices about horses and helped horse owners revise their perspectives. We rode mountain trails, then came home and switched tack to school on the flat and over fences. We went “bushwhacking” and discovered the most stupendous vistas and breath-taking landscapes. We loped across the Parade Grounds and raced the washes at Bowie and Granite Gap. We were the stuff of reality shows and music videos. We cooked together and hungrily enjoyed the fruits of our labours. We went “cowing” and got dirty being “real” cowboys. We talked and shared, listened and laughed. We spent countless hours together in person and stayed in touch while apart by every means available.
We also cried to pull away from that last hug, to see tears pool in reddened eyes, then slide down already-stained cheeks. Craig would go through a type of withdrawal after spending sunup to well past sundown with guests for days and days. Me, I would rattle around in the void, trying to explain to the horses why that nice lady or gentleman, those loving, affectionate children were not there to let them through the gate anymore.
Craig always said the horses were the heart of Hideout Ranch and the Red Dog Saloon its soul. However, I’ve learned through these past years that, irrefutably, Craig was its essence. He was the cowboy everyone came to ride with, sit on the porch with, stand around the grill and joke with, pop open a Bud Light and quench a thirst with. Throughout the guest ranch industry, people come west to ride with a cowboy. Unquestioningly, Craig was our cowboy and people loved riding with him. When the trail looked especially challenging or at the top of a particularly steep climb, he would turn in his saddle to look at the guests and say innocently, merry blue eyes twinkling beneath the wide brim of his hat, “Remember, you chose to follow me.”
And follow him they did…
We had amazing people work with us over the years, people our guests embraced as their own. Our generous guests have gifted us with mementos, treasures, and treats. Each one left a piece of themselves here with us, and we surely sent part of us home with them.
Even before Craig and I met while working at a guest ranch in the Dragoons in the early 2000s, he wanted to own and operate his own guest ranch. He wanted to ride the trails he wanted to ride, the way he wanted to ride them. He wanted to make a difference in people’s lives, and he wanted to employ horses to reach them, to teach them, to set them free. Hideout Ranch was Craig’s dream, his vision, and I was phenomenally blessed to help him build it. They say “behind every successful rancher is a wife who works in town” or other states, in our case. Every moment spent working thousands of miles away was worth it to see him ride with guests, zip around in the Gator feeding the horses, listen to him tell stories in the Red Dog, see his river blue eyes mist over when visiting singers would sing his favourite songs. I helped my husband live his dream – what an honour for me to say that.
We had an amazing go here at Hideout Ranch – both as a full-on working cattle and guest ranch then as a Western Bed and Breakfast, providing respite and refreshment from the rigors of travel or simply a refuge from the harries and hassles of life. I am deeply, truly, eternally grateful to everyone who made the years I had here so memorable and precious.
As Craig loved to say, I will “catch ya later on down the trail…"