01/14/2025
My sweet angel Kady girl. 🧡 1.14.24 😇
My heart still breaks not having Kady here by my side. What a life we gave each other. I would pick her over and over again all my life if I had the choice. A love so deep it can’t be explained but I know yall know this feeling, and if not I only hope one day you do! 2024 was the year of absolute heartbreak for me. A pain I didn’t even knew existed. A shattered heart that almost feels impossible to put back together. A depression that I’m still working to get through. I learned what grieving is all about and still going through the process. Kady was my constant everything for 12+ years.
Kady had started getting weaker from her battle with cancer. When I say battle, she was a f’n warrior through it all. Lived almost a year longer than the dr said. We all slept in the living room with her right by my side for two nights before she passed. All five dogs, Kyle and myself. Kady woke me up with her cries on a Sunday morning a year ago. I remember getting up and putting her on her other side. She wasn’t as mobile and I would move her around a lot. I lit a candle. She was right there beside me, facing me. I went back to sleep. A little later I woke up with my head still on the pillow starring at Kady. Her lungs weren’t filling with air. I didn’t move. Just laid there, starring at my kady girl, knowing when I get up it would then be too real. It felt like so many minutes passed by before I slowly got up, went to lay by her side, and put my hands on her. She was gone. Peacefully in her sleep. Right beside me. I woke up Kyle and said Kady isn’t breathing, I think she passed. I stayed by her side until I wrapped her in a blanket and loaded her and all the dogs in the truck to take her to the vet. It was dumping snow. The drive was slow and very very quiet. I remember laying her down in the office and I wanted to rub her body one last time. I ran my hands through her soft fur on her body, then her tail, her ears, and last but not least her nub from her missing a leg. I wanted to remember that moment.
Death sucks. Not having kady is the worst. BUT her being in my life was truly the best most magical time of my life! Forever my🧡.
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