10/25/2025
I won’t lie- I debated about a 1/2 hr if I should post this video or not. I’m sure many of us debate this on a daily basis and it’s just not talked about enough. I’m thrilled with how this looks- I truly cannot stop watching it but I know it doesn’t look like much and to some it may even look messy or “wrong”. I’m a “professional” right?
This is my 3 year old Luna who we just started back at the end of August. She just recently had 3 weeks off just to be a horse and this is probably her 10th plus ride. Her first time without human guidance in the middle of the ring. We were able to steer, go forward, slow, and even start to figure out how to choose to go into the bridle & her find her own balance. She’s a strong personality- I mean that in the best way but it does mean that she’s more prone to have more conversation & testing the boundaries. I believe this will make her an incredible horse because once she understands- she carries her own confidence. Today was a huge step in her allowing me to be her guide.
I know we have a “bond” on the ground but today for the first time- I actually felt like she is “mine”. I know this all sounds cheesy but honestly it been a mental struggle since loosing Zu about 1/2 way through my pregnancy and not really having a riding connection with a horse coming back postpartum. I’ve enjoyed riding client horses but it’s almost unexplainable in words the hole I felt without having that feel with something of my own even though on paper they’re “mine”.
I’m not usually one to talk about these things openly but I know there are others out there that are doubting themselves or trying to find their way back. It doesn’t matter if it’s postpartum, loss of horse, moving to a new horse, coming back from injury or something completely different- just know that it will come back. Don’t give up finding a way to enjoy whatever it is that makes you happy and don’t be nervous to show building blocks to the big picture. I want this video on my feed so a year from now- I can say “dayum- look where we started”.
Taylor Swifts- Eldest Daughter in the background speaks to the difficulties we face of our true self because of social media.
