18/08/2023
Iāve been posting some short quotes by an author-horse trainer/healer-horseman-horsehuman facilitator coach, Nahshon Cook (he eloquently exists beyond the limits of a single title). Iāve been reading about a chapter a day, sometimes more, as part of my centering practice recently while caregiving for my mom.
The short quotes are left for people to make their own metaphors, connections, and applications from. This will be a longer post, making some of the (potential) connections more explicit. Horses teach us, or have the potential to teach us, about every other aspect of lifeāif weāre listening. As a therapist who specializes on relationships in all of their varieties (parent-child relationships, romantic relationships, divorcees and co-parents, foster/adoption/kinship care dynamics, work stress, social skills, etc.), it is clear to me that people often arenāt listening. Listening requires letting go of control. Listening requires not knowing. Listening requires being open to being influenced by someone elseās experience, even if it is different from your own or inconvenient in some way. The discomfort and fear of those requirements can override the ability or willingness to listen in a moment. And that is a place where humans cause a lot of (unintentional) harm. After all, most of us have been modeled ways to persuade, convince, or demand that certain things happen on certain timelines, without also being taught skills of compromise, discernment, or adaptability.
In chapter 26 of āHorses See Us As We Areā, Nahshon writes āWith horse, when you can move beyond what youāve learned to be afraid of, and it still feels right, even if it doesnāt make sense, thatās love. You just want them to be happy. That said, sometimes you have every good thing to offer, and they still say āno.ā If you honor their answer, thatās love.ā
That is also true for a child, or a partner, or an athlete, or a colleagueā¦ the ability to accept an authentic ānoā, even if it doesnāt make sense or isnāt what we want to hear (because weāve already given every good thing we have), is the ability to tolerate disappointment and heartbreak. [Ideally, especially with a loved one, we get the chance to have an open conversation about the boundary, over time, with support, but sometimes it isnāt up for conversation or explanation.]
Sometimes people leave. Sometimes relationships fizzle. And when we have space for boundaries and limitations inside of ourselves, we donāt have to fight against or deny that truth. The ānoā can cause an ache or sinking, and we feel that truth alongside the spaciousness that the ānoā was honest as well. The magic is that there isnāt a secondary contraction around the ache or the sinking feeling. So much more becomes possible when we practice this skill.
In chapter 31, Nahshon adds, āBut, I know that sometimes the lesson is in accepting that a horse is outside of my expectation of what I think they should be and that being enough.
For example: I have a horse, my young horse Remi, who is seven, who had really horrible trauma done to one of his ligaments in his back. Heās rideable, and I want to ride him, but he doesnāt want to be ridden, so Iām not going to. Heās cured. His body is good. But mentally, heās not, and he may never be, and what do I do with that except understand that being healed can sometimes be very different than being cured.ā
You might want to read that last part again. Feel it. As a therapist, it brings tears to my eyes. Sometimes, when Iām working with clients, the entire work is around the fact that I donāt have the same expectations of them as their parents or teachers or other people. I let them choose their goals. I let them identify what they believe can be healed or not. I often hold more belief in their capacity to heal than they do, because Iāve already seen/experienced that kind of healing and know it is possible. But I donāt have expectations about their pace or how far they get or what route leads to their healing.
Imagine how much less conflict would be in your life if you didnāt experience the pressure and āshouldsā of someone else? Imagine how much less conflict would be in your life if you didnāt hold so tightly to the āshouldsā and expectations you have of other people. What if it was all just questions and requests? And enough space to say ānoā and receive ānoā when it is true?
Thanks for this inspiration Nahshon Cook Horsemanship.