11/18/2020
Dear Papash: Little Man is more skidish than Papash, and afraid of people. When we lost Papash we promised to do a better job looking out for the strays with no home. Since the day Papash has passed Little Man has been at our door step almost every day. We're watching over him the way we should have watched over Papash. Getting him vaccinations and fixed will be so much harder since he doesn't have the same innate trust. It makes me so mad at myself for not doing that for Papash. He would have sat through it, never lost that amazing friendliness and trust before and afterwards. Be careful of the kindness you hold back, it may haunt you one day.
Later today I got wet food for Little Man. I also donated to homeless kittens. It made me remember how many times at Pet Smart the question came up do you want to donate to homeless animals and I chose no. It also made me remember that despite us feeding you and loving you, we never took you out of the elements. We talked about getting you an outdoor cat house, so you could come in from the rain, but never got around to it. I have no excuses. We should have done that four years ago. We're going to get one for Little Man so we don't have to fall apart when we finally bring his ashes inside.
